How This All Came About
Resolutions. Changes. Perfection.
None of this really matters until your body and mind sync up together. All those failed attempts, lost willpower, dread, forcing, self-sabotage…they didn’t come from not being able to do something. They came from a misalignment between your body and mind.
How do I know this?
A strange thing happened to me about a month ago. I was having a frustrating day and trying to ask the deep questions, but my ego was getting the way and not letting what needed to come through come out. That’s when my husband Lee put on his intuition cap and really felt into what it was I needed.
His eyes jolted open when he felt my body screaming to work out – like hard core workouts (no more of this “just doing yoga” stuff every once and a while). And I instantly started sobbing uncontrollably. Like hard core crying.
I was shocked.
Because I had completely resolved myself to not fight with myself over whether I should work out or not. I was sick of the negative commentary that went on in my head and I was done with it. So, I let it go. Once and for all.
No more worrying about what the scale told me. No more beating myself up about not moving enough. No more trying to be the perfect anything. I know I’m living a healthy lifestyle and these superficial commentaries no longer matter to me. They were unhealthy and unloving for me to continue to have in my head.
So, while my body was crying uncontrollably, my brain was like “WTF!?! I thought we were done with this!” Here’s the thing. All of a sudden my brain and body synced up with the desire to work out. I was drained, defeated and I surrendered to what was happening. It was my ego that surrendered the most.
Lee and I put our shoes on and headed up to Orange Theory Fitness to sign me up. From this defeated and surrendering space I knew that going to class twice a week was possible and I’ve been going twice a week ever since.
I no longer have the dreaded “I’ll work out later” or “I don’t want to go” or “Ugh, whhhhyyyyyyy” comments going on in my head.
They are gone!
The surrender of my ego finally allowed the truth to come through.
Then about a week later I get this voice in my head speaking loud and clear that says… “EAT PALEO”
This was not a “hmmmm…I think I want to try eating Paleo” or “Paleo sounds like a good way to go”
This voice was not my own and there was no arguing with it.
Ummmmm…okay, I’ll start transitioning today…
So I have. It’s not perfect. Some days I still eat a cookie or chocolate. Sometimes I have a sandwich. But all days I make better choices that are more in line with Paleo and my intuition on what my body needs in the moment.
That’s what matters most.
Resolutions aren’t about forcing yourself to do something you’re not in alignment with. Find what your intuition is telling you to do and do that. Resolve to honor and listen to yourself. Give yourself the permission to do so, just like I did. When you are ready, of course.
Two Months In – The Results So Far
I posted this up in my Facebook Accountability Group:
I’m just starting month 3 with OTF and I’m so excited about the results that I’m getting.
And by results, I don’t mean weight loss…
The past two weekends my husband and I have hiked up and down Pigeon Hill. This was the first time I’ve been hiking since starting at OTF.
Before OTF I would huff and puff my way to the top of Kennesaw Mountain – the easy side – falling behind and had to focus on taking it one step at a time. Sometimes not even making it all the way to the top.
At about the 2 month mark, I huffed and puffed just in the beginning of Pigeon Hill and then after my body adjusted, I did great the rest of the way. My thighs powered through the whole way and I felt how much stronger I am becoming.
That in and of itself is incredibly motivating to me.
I don’t even care about weight loss at this point. I’m happy to be finally building some good quality muscles!
Especially since my husband and I are planning to take a group mastermind to hike the GA part of the AT in late April, early May.
With the results I’m getting from OTF, I know I’ll be ready to take on a few mountains a day for a week.
Thanks everyone for all the awesome positivity, encouragement, and booty kicking. This is the first “gym” I’ve ever really enjoyed going to.”
Because of this post, the lady who puts together the monthly newsletter asked if she could feature my story.
Going to Orange Theory Fitness has been the most enjoyable and most results producing workout experience I’ve ever had. That’s also saying a lot because I’m not someone who enjoys going to the gym.
The OTF experience is different. There is not competition with others around me. We are all doing the same thing and pushing ourselves in our own way. The only person I’m in competition with is myself. This is the first time I’ve felt this way – only being in competition with myself – and it feels liberating.
My coaches keep a close eye on me and everyone around me to help us move forward in a positive way. It’s become this safe space for me to build up my body in the way I need to and one that honors my own process, while still keeping me accountable with the heart monitor stats.
The coaches let you know what you should be doing next, every step of the way, so I don’t ever have to think about it (freeing!). I just get on the rower, or treadmill, follow the instructions, and go. I let the coaches do their job and I stay focused on mine – moving one step at a time.